Unmotivated

Current Weight: 285
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 9 (single digit numbers! Yeah baby!)
Goal 1 Prize: I've changed my mind...new undies!!
Current Points Used Today: 28.5
Current Week Points Left: 34
Current Activity Points Today: 4
Current Activity Weekly Total: 29
Current Mood: Tired

I just could not get motivated today. I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to work out. I didn't want to go to work. I didn't even want to make dinner! It's no bueno. I have stayed good with my points though, luckily. But again, I still have 7.5 to use by the end of my day and it's 12:44. I even had Swedish Fish!! Can I tell you, Swedish Fish taste amazing when you can't have them!

I'm worried about tomorrow. I am going on a quick roadtrip back to my old college with some friends for the night. I know I am going to be eating out, and it's killing me that I won't be able to keep track of my food. It's so easy here at home, but it kills me going out. I've been checking www.dietfact.com to look for some healthy options, and double checking websites, and I have saved up all of my weekly points, and all of my activity points for the just in case scenarios. But I am still so nervous. I really want to do good.

I've discovered that I want to lie...take things back...cheat. I alway process the thought. Then I realize the computer doesn't care if I lie. The website doesn't care if I lie. The only person I am cheating, is me. And I can't truly cheat myself, can I. Why would I want to? It's actually kinda frustrating!