Today was an AWESOME day! I felt like rehearsal went really well!! And J gave me a cool Spock toy! My interview went well! Dinner was good! I got my drawers cleaned out! I found some cool stuff! Decorated my room some more! Overall a very positive day! (hence all the exclamations!)
I'm really quite happy. Yay for good days!
I'm finding serenity now that my room is clean and organized. It's wonderful and I have found some music to settle my head. It's amazing, the peace I have found. I knew this would happen when I organized my life.
On an unrelated note, I am a little bit stalking the guy next door. He's kinda cute.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Stuck
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 252
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: 0
Mood: Frustrated!
So I'm still stuck at 252, 40 lbs down. I'm stuck!!! Even wehn I stay on my points, I don't seem to be going down. I need to exercise more tomorrow. I am going to try as hard as I can to stay on my plan!!
Sigh.
Last Weight: 252
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: 0
Mood: Frustrated!
So I'm still stuck at 252, 40 lbs down. I'm stuck!!! Even wehn I stay on my points, I don't seem to be going down. I need to exercise more tomorrow. I am going to try as hard as I can to stay on my plan!!
Sigh.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Zombie Girl Finds Zen
Yikes! I can't believe I am still awake! Today was the first of our morning rehearsals and I sure as hell only got about 3 hours of sleep. I'm really not sure how I am still going.
It's been a rough few days, but my zombie state has actually calmed me down. My room seems to be kicking in. It really is quite calming. Hopefully when I am done with this, I'll lay down and sleep well.
We'll see.
It's been a rough few days, but my zombie state has actually calmed me down. My room seems to be kicking in. It really is quite calming. Hopefully when I am done with this, I'll lay down and sleep well.
We'll see.
What a day!
GRR!! Well today was filled with even more crap! Wht a lovely trend I am starting!
And it started out so simply and so cozy. Gus and I cuddles while it rained. Work was easy. But that was the morning.
The afternoon had me unfocused at rehearsal and the evening brought a huge fight with the fam. Lovely.
And it started out so simply and so cozy. Gus and I cuddles while it rained. Work was easy. But that was the morning.
The afternoon had me unfocused at rehearsal and the evening brought a huge fight with the fam. Lovely.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Everything hits you at once!
Have you ever had one of those days where you thought to yourself "does everyone want me to have a bad day?" The weird thing is, I fucking cleaned and de-cluttered my room all damn day just so I could try to start to declutter my life and yet, it cluttered itself right back up again. And I slept well too!! Woke up early, all ready to greet the day and what do you know, all hell has broken loose at work. Some kids have strep throat, my boss is worried about communication, I worked from the moment I woke up, straight through to rehearsal time! Rehearsal was exhausting and my job is getting more and more intensive as we grow closer and closer to show.
Then there is the Bro!! Fucking breaker of promises who has a party and leaves all his shit here! There is a really strong chance that I might sell all his shit on eBay! Prick! I can only hope more shit will actually declutter tomorrow, if not my life's going to SHIT!
Then there is the Bro!! Fucking breaker of promises who has a party and leaves all his shit here! There is a really strong chance that I might sell all his shit on eBay! Prick! I can only hope more shit will actually declutter tomorrow, if not my life's going to SHIT!
So Random...just thoughts!
Bro moving out is SUPER FRUSTRATING!! I just want this to be my own space!
Sorta blew my diet today and probably a little last night too. I forgot to do my weight as well. Oops. Oh well.
Is it weird that I am envious of celebs because they get to go to award shows? That's silly huh?
I did a really good job cleaning my room today. Took a lot of work, but it's so very nice and zen now. R came over and kept me company for a bit while I did it, then we hung out for awhile. We've decided we need to have R&R day every Sunday to keep up on TV. It's going to keep us close.
Cali is weighing heavily on my mind today. It might be why I am in such a weird mood (hence the random blog!). I also blame a lack of friends to hang out with (why doesn't everyone have Monday off?) and bf (despite last blog, I know!) because I am so freaking bored!!
Sorta blew my diet today and probably a little last night too. I forgot to do my weight as well. Oops. Oh well.
Is it weird that I am envious of celebs because they get to go to award shows? That's silly huh?
I did a really good job cleaning my room today. Took a lot of work, but it's so very nice and zen now. R came over and kept me company for a bit while I did it, then we hung out for awhile. We've decided we need to have R&R day every Sunday to keep up on TV. It's going to keep us close.
Cali is weighing heavily on my mind today. It might be why I am in such a weird mood (hence the random blog!). I also blame a lack of friends to hang out with (why doesn't everyone have Monday off?) and bf (despite last blog, I know!) because I am so freaking bored!!
Oh, Lately it's so Quiet
So the power just went out, but I'm not annoyed at all. I was being entirely too distracted by late night TV. I decided to come back and sit outside. It's surprisingly bright out here for this late hour. Breeze is nice. And it's so quiet. The people next door are out on their balcony as well and I can hear someone down on the street as well. But otherwise, it's relativly quiet. Of course as I write this, a siren is blaring in the distance. Figures.
So today I ate quite alot again. But I sorta felt like I needed it after my long week. I plan to be back on tomorrow.
Bro is moving out this weekend. It's nice because I feel like him leaving will help declutter the house which in turn will help declutter my life. That would be a lovely feeling!
Rehearsal tomorrow night, then I might help the Bro and finally Star Max Itrek tomorrow at midnight!! Hells to the yeah!!
So today I ate quite alot again. But I sorta felt like I needed it after my long week. I plan to be back on tomorrow.
Bro is moving out this weekend. It's nice because I feel like him leaving will help declutter the house which in turn will help declutter my life. That would be a lovely feeling!
Rehearsal tomorrow night, then I might help the Bro and finally Star Max Itrek tomorrow at midnight!! Hells to the yeah!!
A Moments Clarity
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 252
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: 0
Mood: Ha!
I know that I'm silly and ditzy and borderline crazy, but sometimes I have moments of absolute calrity. Complete lucidity!! I eureka moment!!!
Today, I had one of those moments!
This whole day just felt like a VERY positive day! I set my alarm for 11, even though I wanted to wake up at 10. But instead of snoozing until like 11:40 like yesterday, I got up at 11! So small victory!
Getting ready for the designer run seemed easy and running it seemed even easier. The kids took the show from like 1 hr. 45 min, to 1 hr. 9 min!! They impressed the hell out of me!!
So after rehearsal, L and I stood out and talked for a while. She is just so great, she as done so much and wanted so much and she really does think like I do when it comes to men and relationships.
I DO NOT WANT A MAN TO DEFINE ME!!! I DO NOT WANT TO STOP MY DREAMS FOR A MAN!!! I WILL LOSE THIS WEIGHT!!! I WILL MOVE TO CALIFORNIA!!!
Then, and only then will I consider settleing down. I don't want to be her age and feel her regret! In 20 years, I don't want to tell myself that I 'shoulda, coulda, woulda'
If everyone else can do it, I can too!! I have the tenacity to do it! My horoscope and birthday always say so and I don't care if you believe in astrology or not because it's my talisman and I what I need to keep my life force driving in this direction.
I CAN!!
I WILL!!
Last Weight: 252
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: 0
Mood: Ha!
I know that I'm silly and ditzy and borderline crazy, but sometimes I have moments of absolute calrity. Complete lucidity!! I eureka moment!!!
Today, I had one of those moments!
This whole day just felt like a VERY positive day! I set my alarm for 11, even though I wanted to wake up at 10. But instead of snoozing until like 11:40 like yesterday, I got up at 11! So small victory!
Getting ready for the designer run seemed easy and running it seemed even easier. The kids took the show from like 1 hr. 45 min, to 1 hr. 9 min!! They impressed the hell out of me!!
So after rehearsal, L and I stood out and talked for a while. She is just so great, she as done so much and wanted so much and she really does think like I do when it comes to men and relationships.
I DO NOT WANT A MAN TO DEFINE ME!!! I DO NOT WANT TO STOP MY DREAMS FOR A MAN!!! I WILL LOSE THIS WEIGHT!!! I WILL MOVE TO CALIFORNIA!!!
Then, and only then will I consider settleing down. I don't want to be her age and feel her regret! In 20 years, I don't want to tell myself that I 'shoulda, coulda, woulda'
If everyone else can do it, I can too!! I have the tenacity to do it! My horoscope and birthday always say so and I don't care if you believe in astrology or not because it's my talisman and I what I need to keep my life force driving in this direction.
I CAN!!
I WILL!!
Monday, June 8, 2009
Yikes!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 255
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: -3
Mood:
You know I'm still not having the best week. You would think that with maintaining the same bloody 5 lobs and having a rough weekend, and havine stomach problems attached to that, I would learn my lesson and eat well!
But alas, I went out and had BBQ last night! And I don't even enjoy it because the whold time I am thinking about how many points it is!
Today was a little better, even though it didn't start out well because I ate my left over BBQ. But luckily dinner was saving because it was burritos, and I even had enough left over to buy a Frutista! So yay! Hell, I still think I have some left over.
I am almost afraid of stepping on the scale though. I know, it's sad, and I need to own up to my over-eating, but I just can't do it! Maybe tomorrow. Maybe. I have to soon, and if I do it tomorrow it will give me an idea of where I stand and what I need to do.
I need to go to bed too. Sleep helps me from over-eating.
Last Weight: 255
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: -3
Mood:
You know I'm still not having the best week. You would think that with maintaining the same bloody 5 lobs and having a rough weekend, and havine stomach problems attached to that, I would learn my lesson and eat well!
But alas, I went out and had BBQ last night! And I don't even enjoy it because the whold time I am thinking about how many points it is!
Today was a little better, even though it didn't start out well because I ate my left over BBQ. But luckily dinner was saving because it was burritos, and I even had enough left over to buy a Frutista! So yay! Hell, I still think I have some left over.
I am almost afraid of stepping on the scale though. I know, it's sad, and I need to own up to my over-eating, but I just can't do it! Maybe tomorrow. Maybe. I have to soon, and if I do it tomorrow it will give me an idea of where I stand and what I need to do.
I need to go to bed too. Sleep helps me from over-eating.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Calming Down
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 252
Current Weight: 255
Change in Weight: +3
Mood: Eh...
So for the most part, things are ok. I know I seemed a little...manic, the past few blogs, but really it's just a lot of built of frustration.
I am happy I reached the 40lb mark, even if I did fall a bit. I kinda hate that I squandered it away. I keep doing that. I need to get more discipline!
I am still at 255, which is one of the lowest weights I've ever been. I mean I know at some point, I must have been this weight. But I'll be damned if I remember when. It's probably been too long. And I've never exactly been weight conscious.
So I am back on the diet and I am going to try to go full force again. Tracking and everything! Just focus and try to go for it. I need to watch when I go out with J&S though. That is where I get in trouble. Although I was careful last night.
Anyway, to the friend front. J&S are so great! They've really stepped up to replace the vacant R. And I hardly ever have time to see C&A anymore. One of my high school friends, who's also named Rochelle, had become a lot closer as well!
I see the old group some of the time. We all went out a few nights ago and it was a ton of fun! But it's hard now with some of them being in new relationships.
I know I keep saying that I really want someone right now, but I really don't think it's in my best interest. Anbd I think I might actually be ok with that.
Well...maybe....
Last Weight: 252
Current Weight: 255
Change in Weight: +3
Mood: Eh...
So for the most part, things are ok. I know I seemed a little...manic, the past few blogs, but really it's just a lot of built of frustration.
I am happy I reached the 40lb mark, even if I did fall a bit. I kinda hate that I squandered it away. I keep doing that. I need to get more discipline!
I am still at 255, which is one of the lowest weights I've ever been. I mean I know at some point, I must have been this weight. But I'll be damned if I remember when. It's probably been too long. And I've never exactly been weight conscious.
So I am back on the diet and I am going to try to go full force again. Tracking and everything! Just focus and try to go for it. I need to watch when I go out with J&S though. That is where I get in trouble. Although I was careful last night.
Anyway, to the friend front. J&S are so great! They've really stepped up to replace the vacant R. And I hardly ever have time to see C&A anymore. One of my high school friends, who's also named Rochelle, had become a lot closer as well!
I see the old group some of the time. We all went out a few nights ago and it was a ton of fun! But it's hard now with some of them being in new relationships.
I know I keep saying that I really want someone right now, but I really don't think it's in my best interest. Anbd I think I might actually be ok with that.
Well...maybe....
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
More Frustrations
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 252
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: 0
Mood: Frustrated! Still!!
Why the hell does my life have to be so shitty right now?! GRRR!!! I want to fucking scream!!
And fucking R keeps rubbing the new BF in my face!
I can do better then this! And I can be better then this!! And I will!! I'm at 40 lbs. I just need to stay on plan and start my running.
I WILL DO THIS!
150 lbs. total! I don't want to do anything less.
Last Weight: 252
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: 0
Mood: Frustrated! Still!!
Why the hell does my life have to be so shitty right now?! GRRR!!! I want to fucking scream!!
And fucking R keeps rubbing the new BF in my face!
I can do better then this! And I can be better then this!! And I will!! I'm at 40 lbs. I just need to stay on plan and start my running.
I WILL DO THIS!
150 lbs. total! I don't want to do anything less.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Frustration!
So I am making this more about everything and not just my weight. It's my whole guide to becoming a new me all around.
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 258 ish
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: 6 ish
Mood: Frustrated!
I am so very, very, very sick of being fat! Just disgusted with it and disgusted with myself for being this way. I can do better! This is below me.
I hate that I can't get a boyfriend because of it! It's bullshit! I'm fun! I'm pretty! And I deserve it!
I fell off for awhile and was eating whatever the fuck I wanted. No bueno! I gained too much! BAD! BAD! BAD!
And the bullshit part is that all my friends are hooked up now and happy. And I have no part in it. Single ladies club is getting small.
But like I said I can do better and I will! I am going to start running. I am going to do the couch to 5K. I will do better. And I will be thinner. End of story.
Sorry....I had a bad, bad, bad day. More on that later.
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 258 ish
Current Weight: 252
Change in Weight: 6 ish
Mood: Frustrated!
I am so very, very, very sick of being fat! Just disgusted with it and disgusted with myself for being this way. I can do better! This is below me.
I hate that I can't get a boyfriend because of it! It's bullshit! I'm fun! I'm pretty! And I deserve it!
I fell off for awhile and was eating whatever the fuck I wanted. No bueno! I gained too much! BAD! BAD! BAD!
And the bullshit part is that all my friends are hooked up now and happy. And I have no part in it. Single ladies club is getting small.
But like I said I can do better and I will! I am going to start running. I am going to do the couch to 5K. I will do better. And I will be thinner. End of story.
Sorry....I had a bad, bad, bad day. More on that later.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Working it out
So I'm feeling better. Way better then yesterday. I just need to remember to keep everything in perspective and I need to write here to vent things before they get so dam muddled up in my head.
I'm not great, but I am WAY less frustrated. I am still a little overwhelmed though.
My weight is up again. Sad day. But I'm on points! Unlike the days before! And there seems to be a 2 day delay in weight change. So in theory, tomorrow I will be down.
We'll see.
I'm not great, but I am WAY less frustrated. I am still a little overwhelmed though.
My weight is up again. Sad day. But I'm on points! Unlike the days before! And there seems to be a 2 day delay in weight change. So in theory, tomorrow I will be down.
We'll see.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
AHHHHGGGGHHHHH!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 263
Current Weight: 258 ish
Change in Weight: 5
Mood: Great!
Haha! I am recording less and less.
I am SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED!! I am so fed up right now! M&D do nothing!! J&C are moving out, buy spending their last few weeks being obnoxious!
I want to move to LA! I want to start a new life! I want to grow up! I want to lose weight! I want a boyfriend! I want so much and I SWEAR I will make it happen!
Last Weight: 263
Current Weight: 258 ish
Change in Weight: 5
Mood: Great!
Haha! I am recording less and less.
I am SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED!! I am so fed up right now! M&D do nothing!! J&C are moving out, buy spending their last few weeks being obnoxious!
I want to move to LA! I want to start a new life! I want to grow up! I want to lose weight! I want a boyfriend! I want so much and I SWEAR I will make it happen!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Busy, busy, busy!!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 269
Current Weight: 263
Change in Weight: 6
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 0
Goal 3 Prize: New Jeans
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 11
Goal 3 Prize: New Dress
Current Points Used Today: 35.5
Current Week Points Left: 11
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Mood: Great!
I haven't blogged in awhile. First was California, then it was a long three week worth of catch up, now, thanks to the snow, I have the night off.
I fell off my diet for a bit, but got back on with a new zest I can't even describe. I will do this! I will lose this weight! End of story.
It's been tough, but I can do it!
Last Weight: 269
Current Weight: 263
Change in Weight: 6
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 0
Goal 3 Prize: New Jeans
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 11
Goal 3 Prize: New Dress
Current Points Used Today: 35.5
Current Week Points Left: 11
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Mood: Great!
I haven't blogged in awhile. First was California, then it was a long three week worth of catch up, now, thanks to the snow, I have the night off.
I fell off my diet for a bit, but got back on with a new zest I can't even describe. I will do this! I will lose this weight! End of story.
It's been tough, but I can do it!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Catching Up
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 269
Current Weight: 269
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 6
Goal 3 Prize: New Jeans
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 17
Goal 3 Prize: New Dress
Current Points Used Today: 38
Current Week Points Left: 30
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Mood: Great!
So I reached my 2nd goal right before I went on vacation, but vacation messed me up and I gained like 1.3 lbs. Which is pretty good. And I am slowly climbing back down again. My big thing is that I ate such crap, even though I got a ton of exercise, it just made me feel awful! So now that I am home I am trying to detoxify the best I can, just to get all the crap out. Just a day later and I am already feeling better.
Last Weight: 269
Current Weight: 269
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 6
Goal 3 Prize: New Jeans
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 17
Goal 3 Prize: New Dress
Current Points Used Today: 38
Current Week Points Left: 30
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Mood: Great!
So I reached my 2nd goal right before I went on vacation, but vacation messed me up and I gained like 1.3 lbs. Which is pretty good. And I am slowly climbing back down again. My big thing is that I ate such crap, even though I got a ton of exercise, it just made me feel awful! So now that I am home I am trying to detoxify the best I can, just to get all the crap out. Just a day later and I am already feeling better.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Feelin' Good
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 270
Current Weight: 269
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 1
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 6
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 0
Current Week Points Left: 34
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Mood: Great!
I am starting to feel better. Things are going well in my life and I an finally off the stupid weight shift I was on. I have even broken 270lbs and am now rockin' the 260s. Lets hope that stays!!
I want to buy a scale so I can keep up in LA. Maybe. I don't know yet.
Last Weight: 270
Current Weight: 269
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 1
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 6
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 0
Current Week Points Left: 34
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Mood: Great!
I am starting to feel better. Things are going well in my life and I an finally off the stupid weight shift I was on. I have even broken 270lbs and am now rockin' the 260s. Lets hope that stays!!
I want to buy a scale so I can keep up in LA. Maybe. I don't know yet.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Better Then I Thought.
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 270
Current Weight: 270
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 2
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 7
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 43
Current Week Points Left: 24.5
Current Activity Points Today: 2
Mood: Alright, crampy
So I went up, but just a little tiny bit. Now I hope it goes down! Here's hoping! But of course, I ate like crazy today. And Dad brought up a good point (although it seems odd that it came from him), period weight doesn't count.
Last Weight: 270
Current Weight: 270
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 2
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 7
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 43
Current Week Points Left: 24.5
Current Activity Points Today: 2
Mood: Alright, crampy
So I went up, but just a little tiny bit. Now I hope it goes down! Here's hoping! But of course, I ate like crazy today. And Dad brought up a good point (although it seems odd that it came from him), period weight doesn't count.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
A Interesting Bench Mark
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 271
Current Weight: 270
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 2
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 7
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 33
Current Week Points Left: 34.5
Current Activity Points Today: 4
Mood: Good, but a little in pain.
So last night C hopped on the Wii Fit to see how much he weighed and he came in at 274. 3 more pounds then me!! I am officially NOT the heaviest person in the family. Next stop, beat Mom, who's in the 250s. Holla!!!
So I am down to 270 today, but I am really insanely afraid that I will jump up again tomorrow, I just feel it coming. My weight has been going pretty steadily down for what feels like a week now, so it's about time for it to go back up. I guess we'll see.
Last Weight: 271
Current Weight: 270
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 2
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 7
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 33
Current Week Points Left: 34.5
Current Activity Points Today: 4
Mood: Good, but a little in pain.
So last night C hopped on the Wii Fit to see how much he weighed and he came in at 274. 3 more pounds then me!! I am officially NOT the heaviest person in the family. Next stop, beat Mom, who's in the 250s. Holla!!!
So I am down to 270 today, but I am really insanely afraid that I will jump up again tomorrow, I just feel it coming. My weight has been going pretty steadily down for what feels like a week now, so it's about time for it to go back up. I guess we'll see.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Staying Solid and Keeping with Distractions
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 272
Current Weight: 271
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 3
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 8
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 34-dead even at the end of the day
Current Week Points Left: 34.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Mood: Eh..
Well I am doing way better then last week and now the diet is just starting to become so very normal. It's just part of everyday life now, not something special I have to do. It's not difficult or something I really even have to think about. It's really nice. Everyone does their fair share to help me along, but they also do their fair share of making it hard, so it's a toss up.
Part of the ease of the diet comes down to the California trip I think. I am so consumed with thinking about and planning that, that I really just only focus on that. I can't wait!! I am so excited!!
I am worried though about being there, will I fall off? How will I check my weight? I can't decide if I should attempt to take my Wii Fit with me to Cali, or if I should buy a scale to take. I would like to take the Wii Fit, but I just don't think it will work. Hmm....
Oh and lastly, I've discovered eating all the points is way better! I drop more evenly and steadily and I don't seem to bounce back up. I'll keep you up to date on that revelation.
Last Weight: 272
Current Weight: 271
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 3
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 8
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 34-dead even at the end of the day
Current Week Points Left: 34.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Mood: Eh..
Well I am doing way better then last week and now the diet is just starting to become so very normal. It's just part of everyday life now, not something special I have to do. It's not difficult or something I really even have to think about. It's really nice. Everyone does their fair share to help me along, but they also do their fair share of making it hard, so it's a toss up.
Part of the ease of the diet comes down to the California trip I think. I am so consumed with thinking about and planning that, that I really just only focus on that. I can't wait!! I am so excited!!
I am worried though about being there, will I fall off? How will I check my weight? I can't decide if I should attempt to take my Wii Fit with me to Cali, or if I should buy a scale to take. I would like to take the Wii Fit, but I just don't think it will work. Hmm....
Oh and lastly, I've discovered eating all the points is way better! I drop more evenly and steadily and I don't seem to bounce back up. I'll keep you up to date on that revelation.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Long Time, No Post and Losing Motivation
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 272
Current Weight: 272
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 4
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 9
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 41!
Current Week Points Left: 9!
Current Activity Points Today: 2
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 133
Current Mood: Eh..
I know it has been a long time since I have written, but I am just losing my patience, I'm losing my motivation, I'm losing my sanity.
I'm still going, but I have had a BAD week. I'm mean, look, I am down to 9 weekly points and usually I don't break 30!! I just mad at life and my parents and myself and EVERYTHING!!! It's just a bad week right?! That is what I keep telling myself. Maybe (hopefully) next week will be much better.
Maybe I should hang around the boards. I don't know. It's rough. Maybe I should talk to J, she is one of my partners in this! I just don't feel like weighing her down with my whiny ways. And that is how I feel, whiny. I can do this, and I know I can, I just don't feel like doing it right now, and therefore, I am whiny.
And I've lost 21lbs! That is huge!! HUGE!! And I am so happy about that, I am, really! But it's just starting to feel so very....annoying. I'll figure it out. Like I said, it's a bad week.
Last Weight: 272
Current Weight: 272
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 4
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 9
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 41!
Current Week Points Left: 9!
Current Activity Points Today: 2
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 133
Current Mood: Eh..
I know it has been a long time since I have written, but I am just losing my patience, I'm losing my motivation, I'm losing my sanity.
I'm still going, but I have had a BAD week. I'm mean, look, I am down to 9 weekly points and usually I don't break 30!! I just mad at life and my parents and myself and EVERYTHING!!! It's just a bad week right?! That is what I keep telling myself. Maybe (hopefully) next week will be much better.
Maybe I should hang around the boards. I don't know. It's rough. Maybe I should talk to J, she is one of my partners in this! I just don't feel like weighing her down with my whiny ways. And that is how I feel, whiny. I can do this, and I know I can, I just don't feel like doing it right now, and therefore, I am whiny.
And I've lost 21lbs! That is huge!! HUGE!! And I am so happy about that, I am, really! But it's just starting to feel so very....annoying. I'll figure it out. Like I said, it's a bad week.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Hmmm....
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 273
Current Weight: 272
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 4
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 9
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 7
Current Week Points Left: 26
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 8
Total Activity Points: 127
Current Mood:eh
I am getting so sick of this! I think it's because I am just in a bad way right now. I do like seeing my weight go down still.
Oh and I do better when I eat all my points and even when I eat over a bit. Hmmmm.
Last Weight: 273
Current Weight: 272
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 4
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 9
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 7
Current Week Points Left: 26
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 8
Total Activity Points: 127
Current Mood:eh
I am getting so sick of this! I think it's because I am just in a bad way right now. I do like seeing my weight go down still.
Oh and I do better when I eat all my points and even when I eat over a bit. Hmmmm.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Going Down Down in an Earlier Round!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 273
Change in Weight: -3
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 5
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 10
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 7
Current Week Points Left: 27
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 119
Current Mood:Alright, I guess....
So I am at the 20 lbs mark! Yay!! But my weigh in yesterday leaves me at 275, so I am not really excited. It's been a rough week.
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 273
Change in Weight: -3
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 5
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 10
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 7
Current Week Points Left: 27
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 119
Current Mood:Alright, I guess....
So I am at the 20 lbs mark! Yay!! But my weigh in yesterday leaves me at 275, so I am not really excited. It's been a rough week.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
A Busy Girl
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 274
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 13
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 4
Current Week Points Left: 27
Current Activity Points Today: 4
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 119
Current Mood:Oy!
It's been a long few days including a play, subbing, a car accident (all is well...even the car!), and me being a little bit depression. Me period is coming...I'll be fine.
Last Weight: 274
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 13
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 4
Current Week Points Left: 27
Current Activity Points Today: 4
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 119
Current Mood:Oy!
It's been a long few days including a play, subbing, a car accident (all is well...even the car!), and me being a little bit depression. Me period is coming...I'll be fine.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Hells to the Yeah!!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 274
Change in Weight: -3
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 6
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 11
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 4
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 10
Total Activity Points: 113
Current Mood: Awesome!!
OMG!!! Down 3 lbs!! How freaking awesome is that?!?! I am so happy! Holla!! One more pound and I hit 20!!
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 274
Change in Weight: -3
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 6
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 11
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 4
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 10
Total Activity Points: 113
Current Mood: Awesome!!
OMG!!! Down 3 lbs!! How freaking awesome is that?!?! I am so happy! Holla!! One more pound and I hit 20!!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
A New Way of Checking Up on Things
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9 (Back in the single digits...lets hope it sticks)
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 14
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 19
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 7
Total Activity Points: 110
Current Mood: Doin' Fine
So I am slowly climbing back down again. Yay!! I need to be way more careful, and I know it. Today I think I will be in good.
My friend A is in design school and she is my plus sized girl! So she is doing a design project and has asked me to be a model for her. So I am going to be able to watch my measurements go down via her which is kind of awesome. The show is on April 1st, so we have sometime. We'll see! And I have already seen some changes. My tummy looks smaller, my thighs look smaller and my face looks smaller! It's so freaking awesome!!
I bought new shirts today, and some fit, some don't. But they will!
Lastly I want to talk about lying. I still want to lie to my point counter and luckily I don't because I always realize that it doesn't care. The only person I lie to is myself. And what is the point in that.
Of course I also hate when I go over, I totally beat myself up over it. Grr!! It drives me crazy!
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9 (Back in the single digits...lets hope it sticks)
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 14
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 19
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 7
Total Activity Points: 110
Current Mood: Doin' Fine
So I am slowly climbing back down again. Yay!! I need to be way more careful, and I know it. Today I think I will be in good.
My friend A is in design school and she is my plus sized girl! So she is doing a design project and has asked me to be a model for her. So I am going to be able to watch my measurements go down via her which is kind of awesome. The show is on April 1st, so we have sometime. We'll see! And I have already seen some changes. My tummy looks smaller, my thighs look smaller and my face looks smaller! It's so freaking awesome!!
I bought new shirts today, and some fit, some don't. But they will!
Lastly I want to talk about lying. I still want to lie to my point counter and luckily I don't because I always realize that it doesn't care. The only person I lie to is myself. And what is the point in that.
Of course I also hate when I go over, I totally beat myself up over it. Grr!! It drives me crazy!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Bleh...maintain...plateau...egh....
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 15
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 22
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Eh...
Grrr! I hate maintaining...I have nothing to say. I just wanted to check in...eh....
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 15
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 22
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Eh...
Grrr! I hate maintaining...I have nothing to say. I just wanted to check in...eh....
Monday, February 16, 2009
Just as I Suspected
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 15
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 22
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Eh...
I knew I ate a lot yesterday, and I ate late, and that equals very bad for me. I gained to bloody pounds, boo!
I've made the change today, and I am thinking clearer, and doing better. And I actually plan to do some exercise later on today. I still have 12 points left today, and I think I may just eat 3, well possibly. I have too many choices right now. Samoas are 3. Ferrero Roche's are 3. Thin Mints are 4. And the new Dulce de Leche cookies are 5. I'll eat one of them, I just don't know which one.
I am becoming really quite proud of my will power though, I am learning to remember that I don't need to eat everything. I can have just a little and move on. And I don't need to always be eating. My cravings are getting bigger though! Today I have wanted cinnimon rolls, cupcakes and the dreaded thin mints I took out of it's original casing and put into a little baggy just for me. And I am all being whiny and sad over the fact that I don't have a whole box of Thin Mints for myself. I don't need a whole box of Thin Mints!! I really don't even like them all that much.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 15
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 22
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Eh...
I knew I ate a lot yesterday, and I ate late, and that equals very bad for me. I gained to bloody pounds, boo!
I've made the change today, and I am thinking clearer, and doing better. And I actually plan to do some exercise later on today. I still have 12 points left today, and I think I may just eat 3, well possibly. I have too many choices right now. Samoas are 3. Ferrero Roche's are 3. Thin Mints are 4. And the new Dulce de Leche cookies are 5. I'll eat one of them, I just don't know which one.
I am becoming really quite proud of my will power though, I am learning to remember that I don't need to eat everything. I can have just a little and move on. And I don't need to always be eating. My cravings are getting bigger though! Today I have wanted cinnimon rolls, cupcakes and the dreaded thin mints I took out of it's original casing and put into a little baggy just for me. And I am all being whiny and sad over the fact that I don't have a whole box of Thin Mints for myself. I don't need a whole box of Thin Mints!! I really don't even like them all that much.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
I Practice the Religion of Greg Beherendt
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 263
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 39.5
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: AWESOME!!!
I LOVE Greg Beherendt. After seeing him I love myself more, my life more, my missions, my choices, everything. I now offically practice the religion of Greg Beherendt.
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 263
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 39.5
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: AWESOME!!!
I LOVE Greg Beherendt. After seeing him I love myself more, my life more, my missions, my choices, everything. I now offically practice the religion of Greg Beherendt.
GOAL 1 ACHIEVED!!!!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 0!!!!!!
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (which I am wearing tonight to Greg Behrendt!!!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 0
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: AWESOME!!!
I did it!!! I did it!!! HOLLA!!!!
I reached my first official goal!!! I am so ridiculously excited!!! It is time to celebrate!!! I am wearing my pink pants and it is going to be awesome!
My points went down again to 34. Which is good, since I rarely eat my whole 35 anyway. My BMI is 45.99....out of the 46s!! This is a great day!!!
My new weight loss goal for myself is 10% weight loss, which is 263, 30 lbs total...as for the gift...I haven't decided. Probably new clothes. Check back later.
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 0!!!!!!
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (which I am wearing tonight to Greg Behrendt!!!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 0
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: AWESOME!!!
I did it!!! I did it!!! HOLLA!!!!
I reached my first official goal!!! I am so ridiculously excited!!! It is time to celebrate!!! I am wearing my pink pants and it is going to be awesome!
My points went down again to 34. Which is good, since I rarely eat my whole 35 anyway. My BMI is 45.99....out of the 46s!! This is a great day!!!
My new weight loss goal for myself is 10% weight loss, which is 263, 30 lbs total...as for the gift...I haven't decided. Probably new clothes. Check back later.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
No Goes
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 1
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 35
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Feelin' Good
Date--eh
Life--good
Diet--awesome
Weigh In Tomorrow-not too nervous....
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 1
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 35
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Feelin' Good
Date--eh
Life--good
Diet--awesome
Weigh In Tomorrow-not too nervous....
Breaking Thru!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 1
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9 (down to single digits!)
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Feelin' Good
I'm down another pound! Yay!! Now if I could only get down one more by tomorrow, I would be a happy, happy girl. However, it's not exactly likely to happen. So I really just need to keep an eye on reality. I actually felt really bloated today, and I thought it was going to go up. Luckily it didn't.
So tonight is my date. I am kind of excited for it. But I am really starting to think about the things I want in my life, and the big things I want to focus on right now are this weight loss, and moving to California. I really wasn't looking for anything, and I really still am not. I don't want anything to hold me back or distract me from either of these two goals.
We'll see what happens.
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 1
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9 (down to single digits!)
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Feelin' Good
I'm down another pound! Yay!! Now if I could only get down one more by tomorrow, I would be a happy, happy girl. However, it's not exactly likely to happen. So I really just need to keep an eye on reality. I actually felt really bloated today, and I thought it was going to go up. Luckily it didn't.
So tonight is my date. I am kind of excited for it. But I am really starting to think about the things I want in my life, and the big things I want to focus on right now are this weight loss, and moving to California. I really wasn't looking for anything, and I really still am not. I don't want anything to hold me back or distract me from either of these two goals.
We'll see what happens.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Long, Long, Long Day (Including the General Lee)
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 21
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Great!
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 21
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Great!
Oh dear it has been a long day. I had a bunch of stuff to do this morning, a bunch of stuff to do before work, and then I had to work. And of course it was opening night which meant extra hours and tons to do. I barely sat down from 5:30 straight though to 11:00!
But we had the General Lee in sight and that was fucking awesome. That is a beautiful fucking car! Now C and J and I are watching the Dukes of Hazzard. The movie of course, not the show.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Back at 15
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (Which I doubt I'll wear this weekend. Sad day!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 82
Current Mood: Great!
So I'm back at 278 again, but this time I feel way better about it. So far it's the lowest I have been on this diet, and I really hope I don't plateau here. I'm working up my exercise, and working back my food. And I did go a little crazy with food last week. So hopefully, if I keep track of myself with the food and exercise, that won't be the case, and I will keep on losing!
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (Which I doubt I'll wear this weekend. Sad day!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 82
Current Mood: Great!
So I'm back at 278 again, but this time I feel way better about it. So far it's the lowest I have been on this diet, and I really hope I don't plateau here. I'm working up my exercise, and working back my food. And I did go a little crazy with food last week. So hopefully, if I keep track of myself with the food and exercise, that won't be the case, and I will keep on losing!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
New Rochelle. New Attitude. New Guy?
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 279
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 27
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 3
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 82
Current Mood: SO GOOD!!
I think I have a date for Saturday!! YAY!!!! I like the new Rochelle!!
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 279
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 27
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 3
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 82
Current Mood: SO GOOD!!
I think I have a date for Saturday!! YAY!!!! I like the new Rochelle!!
Slowly Working Back
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 279
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Better
So I am slowly climbing back down from the weird rebound. It was so frustrating! I felt like it dictated my whole day. Of course then the clouds rolled in, and my bad mood escalated. And I had hurt from the dar prior. Yesterday was just overall bad.
Now that things are going the other way. I am happy to be back down, and to top it off, a guy flirted with me today...so yay! I am slowly working my way back the other way!!
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 279
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Better
So I am slowly climbing back down from the weird rebound. It was so frustrating! I felt like it dictated my whole day. Of course then the clouds rolled in, and my bad mood escalated. And I had hurt from the dar prior. Yesterday was just overall bad.
Now that things are going the other way. I am happy to be back down, and to top it off, a guy flirted with me today...so yay! I am slowly working my way back the other way!!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
WTF?!?!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 6
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Depressed
I have nothing to say. Other then: WTF?!?!?!
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 6
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Depressed
I have nothing to say. Other then: WTF?!?!?!
Monday, February 9, 2009
Workin' Out Like Mad
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 20
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 11
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Worked Out!
Oh deary me! I just had a crazy huge workout. On the one side, I feel AWESOME. But on the other side, I am EXHAUSTED!
I really like my new work out schedule. At first I tried to workout in the morning, but that was just no bueno. I had no energy and no motivation. I had to force myself to do it, and when I didn't, it ruined my whole day. Now that I wait until the afternoon, I WANT to workout, and I have the energy, the motivation, and in someways, the guilt of all the food I had eaten that day. I think I am also going to try and start walking, probably at some of the parks around here.
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 20
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 11
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Worked Out!
Oh deary me! I just had a crazy huge workout. On the one side, I feel AWESOME. But on the other side, I am EXHAUSTED!
I really like my new work out schedule. At first I tried to workout in the morning, but that was just no bueno. I had no energy and no motivation. I had to force myself to do it, and when I didn't, it ruined my whole day. Now that I wait until the afternoon, I WANT to workout, and I have the energy, the motivation, and in someways, the guilt of all the food I had eaten that day. I think I am also going to try and start walking, probably at some of the parks around here.
Oy!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 13.5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 6
Current Activity Weekly Total: 8
Total Activity Points: 74
Current Mood: Eh....it's been an interesting day!
Bouncing, bouncing, bouncing. I'm up a little, but still at 278, so I am thankful for that, it's a frustrating day. Dad went and bought two fucking bags of Doritos which are tempting me. Luckily they are only 3 points for a few so that makes it a bit easier. I just have to remember to stay mentally prepared to deal with all this, my body isn't craving Doritos, my mind is. And I don't need it.
It's been a low point day. Low breakfast, low lunch, low dinner. I'll exercise when M&D go to bed, hopefully that can balance things out.
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 13.5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 6
Current Activity Weekly Total: 8
Total Activity Points: 74
Current Mood: Eh....it's been an interesting day!
Bouncing, bouncing, bouncing. I'm up a little, but still at 278, so I am thankful for that, it's a frustrating day. Dad went and bought two fucking bags of Doritos which are tempting me. Luckily they are only 3 points for a few so that makes it a bit easier. I just have to remember to stay mentally prepared to deal with all this, my body isn't craving Doritos, my mind is. And I don't need it.
It's been a low point day. Low breakfast, low lunch, low dinner. I'll exercise when M&D go to bed, hopefully that can balance things out.
Jumping Forward
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Tired
All I can think about today, is jumping forward. One day. One week. One month. One year. Just to see how much I lose. I'm always waiting, anticipating (I know that is a line from something...but I just don't know what). It's actually becoming incredibly annoying. I need to slow down work on other parts of my life.
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Tired
All I can think about today, is jumping forward. One day. One week. One month. One year. Just to see how much I lose. I'm always waiting, anticipating (I know that is a line from something...but I just don't know what). It's actually becoming incredibly annoying. I need to slow down work on other parts of my life.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
The Second Weigh In
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 278 (Now I'm breezin' through the 270s!)
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (I want to wear them by next week!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Ecstatic!!!!!
Ooh, I was nervous this morning. I hemmed and hawed quite a bit before I went to the scale this morning. I knew it was the offical weigh in, and whatever I put on the scale today, I had to put into the website, no pussyfooting around. So I didn't eat, I talked to the kids before they left for hockey, I did some laundry. Then, finally I had no other choice.
I almost did a little dance when I saw the BMI score, and when I switched it to weight, I did do a little dance. Offically I am down a pound and a half!! Holla!! I was jumping up and down. Well as much as you can jump up and down on the Wii Fit.
You know how you always read those stories on weight loss websites? So and so lost 50, 100, 150 pounds. It was easy, the change came so simply....ugh...they always make it sound so damn easy! And so you think, "yeah! I could totally do this to!" With this diet, I feel like one of those people. Now that I have actively made the change in my head, it's so simple.
I think it's like drug addicts. They always say you can keep helping them and helping them, but nothing is going to come of it, until they do it for themselves. And maybe that is just it. I was addicted to food, like a drug. But now I am ready to help myself. Ready to change. Ready to be a new person, to lead a new life, to have new goals.
The scary part of the whole thing, is that those stories, the ones of great success, always have a little warning tagged on to the end. "Results not typical." I know it's just to save them from some asinine lawsuit, but it is true isn't it? Out of the, what has to be thousands of people who try this diet, how many fail? Because they aren't ready, or they don't care, or countless other reasons?
I am not going to be one of those people. I am going to be one of the success stories. The ones who have the crazy huge weight loss and claim it was easy. Easy because there was a change in their thinking, or life, or whatever.
15 pounds down, 128 to go. Maybe more.
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 278 (Now I'm breezin' through the 270s!)
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (I want to wear them by next week!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Ecstatic!!!!!
Ooh, I was nervous this morning. I hemmed and hawed quite a bit before I went to the scale this morning. I knew it was the offical weigh in, and whatever I put on the scale today, I had to put into the website, no pussyfooting around. So I didn't eat, I talked to the kids before they left for hockey, I did some laundry. Then, finally I had no other choice.
I almost did a little dance when I saw the BMI score, and when I switched it to weight, I did do a little dance. Offically I am down a pound and a half!! Holla!! I was jumping up and down. Well as much as you can jump up and down on the Wii Fit.
You know how you always read those stories on weight loss websites? So and so lost 50, 100, 150 pounds. It was easy, the change came so simply....ugh...they always make it sound so damn easy! And so you think, "yeah! I could totally do this to!" With this diet, I feel like one of those people. Now that I have actively made the change in my head, it's so simple.
I think it's like drug addicts. They always say you can keep helping them and helping them, but nothing is going to come of it, until they do it for themselves. And maybe that is just it. I was addicted to food, like a drug. But now I am ready to help myself. Ready to change. Ready to be a new person, to lead a new life, to have new goals.
The scary part of the whole thing, is that those stories, the ones of great success, always have a little warning tagged on to the end. "Results not typical." I know it's just to save them from some asinine lawsuit, but it is true isn't it? Out of the, what has to be thousands of people who try this diet, how many fail? Because they aren't ready, or they don't care, or countless other reasons?
I am not going to be one of those people. I am going to be one of the success stories. The ones who have the crazy huge weight loss and claim it was easy. Easy because there was a change in their thinking, or life, or whatever.
15 pounds down, 128 to go. Maybe more.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
279!!!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 279 (Woo!! Rockin' the 270s!!)
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (I want to wear them by next week!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 31
Current Week Points Left: 27.5
Current Activity Points Today: 12
Current Activity Weekly Total: 33
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Good! And so very, very full from Lunch/Dinner
Wooo!!! I have broken into the 270s!! Just barely, but I've done it and that is all that matters. I really hate that my weight loss has slown down. It drives me crazy! I think that is why you are only supposed to weigh yourself once a week. But with the damn Wii Fit I am addicted to doing it every bloody day. And it does go down, it's just by small points like .2 lbs. And I know I am losing at a healthy rate, but COME ON!!! Grrr! It's driving me nuts-oh!
Well I had a good morning, but a big old dinner, so I am going to watch this movie and putz around on the internet for awhile and when I am done with that in a couple hours I am going to exercise like a mad woman and hope for the best. Weigh in is tomorrow!! Eeek!!!!
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 279 (Woo!! Rockin' the 270s!!)
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (I want to wear them by next week!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 31
Current Week Points Left: 27.5
Current Activity Points Today: 12
Current Activity Weekly Total: 33
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Good! And so very, very full from Lunch/Dinner
Wooo!!! I have broken into the 270s!! Just barely, but I've done it and that is all that matters. I really hate that my weight loss has slown down. It drives me crazy! I think that is why you are only supposed to weigh yourself once a week. But with the damn Wii Fit I am addicted to doing it every bloody day. And it does go down, it's just by small points like .2 lbs. And I know I am losing at a healthy rate, but COME ON!!! Grrr! It's driving me nuts-oh!
Well I had a good morning, but a big old dinner, so I am going to watch this movie and putz around on the internet for awhile and when I am done with that in a couple hours I am going to exercise like a mad woman and hope for the best. Weigh in is tomorrow!! Eeek!!!!
Friday, February 6, 2009
A New Person and Slowing Down
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 42.5
Current Week Points Left: 9
Current Activity Points Today: 12
Current Activity Weekly Total: 33
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Good!
So yesterday after the mega huge dinner, I opted to eat nothing unless absolutly desperate. I got close once, but I held off. So this morning I was so very scared my weight was going to go up, but low and behold, it went down. However, I am still hovering in 280.
I was good today, lunch was a bit big, but I made sure to have a small dinner. And at the movie, I just had water, no snack. I actually can't remember the last time I went to the movie theatre and had no snack. It's very strange. But you know what, I didn't miss it. The movie was not made better or worse by the addition or subtraction of snacks. Although the pop corn did smell quite yummy at one point. But again, I got past that.
You know it used to be that if I didn't have food, I felt like I was missing out on something. I am slowly becoming this new person that doesn't need to define herself by food. I love this new person I am becoming. I am more confident and happy as this person. More then I ever was as the old person.
I do hate that I am down to a slow losing rate, so I exercised like hell tonight. I didn't push it, or at least I didn't feel like I pushed it. And I feel great!! And I think I am going to have to stick to exercising at this time, it works better for me. I feel better both emotionally and physically. The mornings are too much of a drain on me.
Hopefully this will pay off tomorrow!!
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 42.5
Current Week Points Left: 9
Current Activity Points Today: 12
Current Activity Weekly Total: 33
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Good!
So yesterday after the mega huge dinner, I opted to eat nothing unless absolutly desperate. I got close once, but I held off. So this morning I was so very scared my weight was going to go up, but low and behold, it went down. However, I am still hovering in 280.
I was good today, lunch was a bit big, but I made sure to have a small dinner. And at the movie, I just had water, no snack. I actually can't remember the last time I went to the movie theatre and had no snack. It's very strange. But you know what, I didn't miss it. The movie was not made better or worse by the addition or subtraction of snacks. Although the pop corn did smell quite yummy at one point. But again, I got past that.
You know it used to be that if I didn't have food, I felt like I was missing out on something. I am slowly becoming this new person that doesn't need to define herself by food. I love this new person I am becoming. I am more confident and happy as this person. More then I ever was as the old person.
I do hate that I am down to a slow losing rate, so I exercised like hell tonight. I didn't push it, or at least I didn't feel like I pushed it. And I feel great!! And I think I am going to have to stick to exercising at this time, it works better for me. I feel better both emotionally and physically. The mornings are too much of a drain on me.
Hopefully this will pay off tomorrow!!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Big Day...eeek!
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (which I already bought...but I won't wear until those last 4 points are gone.
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 42.5
Current Week Points Left: 27.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: Good...nervous about the food today
So no change in weight today and I have a big old meal. I knew I was going to have it though, C and I have been planning to go out to Buffalo Wild Wings for a month or so now. I ate light this morning though, which helped save me. And it was so good! I think as long as I only do it once in awhile, I am fine. So back on the diet for sure tomorrow, and I might do a bit of an extra work out later after The Office.
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (which I already bought...but I won't wear until those last 4 points are gone.
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 42.5
Current Week Points Left: 27.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: Good...nervous about the food today
So no change in weight today and I have a big old meal. I knew I was going to have it though, C and I have been planning to go out to Buffalo Wild Wings for a month or so now. I ate light this morning though, which helped save me. And it was so good! I think as long as I only do it once in awhile, I am fine. So back on the diet for sure tomorrow, and I might do a bit of an extra work out later after The Office.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Back on Track
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 282
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: -2
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 3
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: Excited, despite being sick
Holla!! I am back on track and down to 180!! How freaking awesome is that!! And I was so good last night, I wanted dessert, but didn't have the points for it and I thought, "well I do have all the weekly points there, I could just munch it anyway and take those points." But in the end I remembered how low I felt when the little dot on the Wii Fit moved up and I opted not to eat it. Yay!! I am so ridiculously proud of myself!! More later...
Last Weight: 282
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: -2
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 3
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: Excited, despite being sick
Holla!! I am back on track and down to 180!! How freaking awesome is that!! And I was so good last night, I wanted dessert, but didn't have the points for it and I thought, "well I do have all the weekly points there, I could just munch it anyway and take those points." But in the end I remembered how low I felt when the little dot on the Wii Fit moved up and I opted not to eat it. Yay!! I am so ridiculously proud of myself!! More later...
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
A Tiny Rebound
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 281
Current Weight: 282
Change in Weight:+1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 6
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 14
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 32.5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 8
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: A little sad
I woke up this morning and just felt a little bleh. And I knew stepping on the scale, it would be bad. And I know my point tracking hasn't been 100%. So in truth, I wasn't exactly surprised when my weight went up today. Luckily it was just a pound. And of course my exercise has been, well, non-existant. So tomorrow...and possibly tonight, I am getting back on track. I hate watching that thing go up! Damn! Damn!! Damn!!!
Last Weight: 281
Current Weight: 282
Change in Weight:+1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 6
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 14
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 32.5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 8
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: A little sad
I woke up this morning and just felt a little bleh. And I knew stepping on the scale, it would be bad. And I know my point tracking hasn't been 100%. So in truth, I wasn't exactly surprised when my weight went up today. Luckily it was just a pound. And of course my exercise has been, well, non-existant. So tomorrow...and possibly tonight, I am getting back on track. I hate watching that thing go up! Damn! Damn!! Damn!!!
Monday, February 2, 2009
Starting a New Week
Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 282
Current Weight: 281
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 5
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 13
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 12
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 6
Current Activity Weekly Total: 6
Total Activity Points: 39
Current Mood: Hungry!
For some reason yesterday and today have been so very hard. I really want to eat the heck out of a bag of tortilla chips and some salsa. I'm so hungry!! I've been good though, and I have stuck with it. I just keep thinking about how much weight I have lost, and it just drives me to stay on with it. But when my stomach empties I get sick, and that makes it really hard. All day today I have had to keep snacking to keep myself going. So half of it is mental, and half is physical. It's very bizarre. Maybe a round of careful chips and salsa will make it all better.
Last Weight: 282
Current Weight: 281
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 5
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 13
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 12
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 6
Current Activity Weekly Total: 6
Total Activity Points: 39
Current Mood: Hungry!
For some reason yesterday and today have been so very hard. I really want to eat the heck out of a bag of tortilla chips and some salsa. I'm so hungry!! I've been good though, and I have stuck with it. I just keep thinking about how much weight I have lost, and it just drives me to stay on with it. But when my stomach empties I get sick, and that makes it really hard. All day today I have had to keep snacking to keep myself going. So half of it is mental, and half is physical. It's very bizarre. Maybe a round of careful chips and salsa will make it all better.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
The First Official Weigh In
Current Weight: 282
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 6
Goal 1 Prize: I changed again...new dress pants because they are falling off me!
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 14
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 12
Current Week Points Left: 35, new week
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0, new week
Current Mood: Content
I did my official weight check in today at the website and officially I have lost 10 pounds (11 really because I gained one). The website celebrated me, my parents celebrated me, it's a good day!! They adjusted my daily points down to 35, which isn't as bad as I thought it would be. As you can see, I added a second goal. Mom said she would pay my ticket if I lost 25 pounds. So yay! Doubly good!!
Yesterday was hard with the pizza, but I came home and made an alternative pizza that was way better for me, and I stayed under my points by 2.5! I am really proud of myself!! This is one of the best things I have ever done, I love seeing the results, watching my little chart on the Wii Fit slope down! It's really fulfilling. And despite the bad weekend I have been having, I am still really happy because I have been working on this goal.
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 6
Goal 1 Prize: I changed again...new dress pants because they are falling off me!
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 14
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 12
Current Week Points Left: 35, new week
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0, new week
Current Mood: Content
I did my official weight check in today at the website and officially I have lost 10 pounds (11 really because I gained one). The website celebrated me, my parents celebrated me, it's a good day!! They adjusted my daily points down to 35, which isn't as bad as I thought it would be. As you can see, I added a second goal. Mom said she would pay my ticket if I lost 25 pounds. So yay! Doubly good!!
Yesterday was hard with the pizza, but I came home and made an alternative pizza that was way better for me, and I stayed under my points by 2.5! I am really proud of myself!! This is one of the best things I have ever done, I love seeing the results, watching my little chart on the Wii Fit slope down! It's really fulfilling. And despite the bad weekend I have been having, I am still really happy because I have been working on this goal.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
One Small Great Spark in a Shitacular Day
Current Weight: 283
Change in Weight: -2
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: Lucky 7 baby!!
Goal 1 Prize: New Undies!!
Current Points Used Today: 24 and almost all at breakfast! Boo!!
Current Week Points Left: 34 (I didn't go over yesterday!!)
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 29
Current Mood: Excited by this...depressed by life.
I hate when things build up!! And they always have a habit of doing so. Life is a rollercoaster.
I had to go back to my college alma mater and give a talk about real life theatre work, but I really didn't want to go. I didn't want to do the talk, see the people, any of it! I did it because I was asked by my good friend, and I do love my friends. But the negative energy there just gets to me!
On top of that, I have a cold. Boo!
But what really just was the shit cherry on top of the shit sundae, was that coming back home, I got a speeding ticket. So now I am super mad at myself, and things just aren't working and life feels totally messy.
The good little silver thread that make sit all better, I LOST 10 POUNDS!!! How freaking cool is that?!?! And I was sor worried about having no exercise for 2 days and I was so afraid I would go over my points. But yesterday, I rocked and still had something like 14 points left! Today is going to be a little rougher as I have already eaten somewhere close to 24 points. We'll see...
...they are making pizza at home...
...erg....
...we'll see...
Change in Weight: -2
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: Lucky 7 baby!!
Goal 1 Prize: New Undies!!
Current Points Used Today: 24 and almost all at breakfast! Boo!!
Current Week Points Left: 34 (I didn't go over yesterday!!)
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 29
Current Mood: Excited by this...depressed by life.
I hate when things build up!! And they always have a habit of doing so. Life is a rollercoaster.
I had to go back to my college alma mater and give a talk about real life theatre work, but I really didn't want to go. I didn't want to do the talk, see the people, any of it! I did it because I was asked by my good friend, and I do love my friends. But the negative energy there just gets to me!
On top of that, I have a cold. Boo!
But what really just was the shit cherry on top of the shit sundae, was that coming back home, I got a speeding ticket. So now I am super mad at myself, and things just aren't working and life feels totally messy.
The good little silver thread that make sit all better, I LOST 10 POUNDS!!! How freaking cool is that?!?! And I was sor worried about having no exercise for 2 days and I was so afraid I would go over my points. But yesterday, I rocked and still had something like 14 points left! Today is going to be a little rougher as I have already eaten somewhere close to 24 points. We'll see...
...they are making pizza at home...
...erg....
...we'll see...
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Unmotivated
Current Weight: 285
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 9 (single digit numbers! Yeah baby!)
Goal 1 Prize: I've changed my mind...new undies!!
Current Points Used Today: 28.5
Current Week Points Left: 34
Current Activity Points Today: 4
Current Activity Weekly Total: 29
Current Mood: Tired
I just could not get motivated today. I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to work out. I didn't want to go to work. I didn't even want to make dinner! It's no bueno. I have stayed good with my points though, luckily. But again, I still have 7.5 to use by the end of my day and it's 12:44. I even had Swedish Fish!! Can I tell you, Swedish Fish taste amazing when you can't have them!
I'm worried about tomorrow. I am going on a quick roadtrip back to my old college with some friends for the night. I know I am going to be eating out, and it's killing me that I won't be able to keep track of my food. It's so easy here at home, but it kills me going out. I've been checking www.dietfact.com to look for some healthy options, and double checking websites, and I have saved up all of my weekly points, and all of my activity points for the just in case scenarios. But I am still so nervous. I really want to do good.
I've discovered that I want to lie...take things back...cheat. I alway process the thought. Then I realize the computer doesn't care if I lie. The website doesn't care if I lie. The only person I am cheating, is me. And I can't truly cheat myself, can I. Why would I want to? It's actually kinda frustrating!
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 9 (single digit numbers! Yeah baby!)
Goal 1 Prize: I've changed my mind...new undies!!
Current Points Used Today: 28.5
Current Week Points Left: 34
Current Activity Points Today: 4
Current Activity Weekly Total: 29
Current Mood: Tired
I just could not get motivated today. I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to work out. I didn't want to go to work. I didn't even want to make dinner! It's no bueno. I have stayed good with my points though, luckily. But again, I still have 7.5 to use by the end of my day and it's 12:44. I even had Swedish Fish!! Can I tell you, Swedish Fish taste amazing when you can't have them!
I'm worried about tomorrow. I am going on a quick roadtrip back to my old college with some friends for the night. I know I am going to be eating out, and it's killing me that I won't be able to keep track of my food. It's so easy here at home, but it kills me going out. I've been checking www.dietfact.com to look for some healthy options, and double checking websites, and I have saved up all of my weekly points, and all of my activity points for the just in case scenarios. But I am still so nervous. I really want to do good.
I've discovered that I want to lie...take things back...cheat. I alway process the thought. Then I realize the computer doesn't care if I lie. The website doesn't care if I lie. The only person I am cheating, is me. And I can't truly cheat myself, can I. Why would I want to? It's actually kinda frustrating!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Miscounting and Point Follies...Oh and I Can't Cook a Baked Potato.
Current Weight: 286 probably
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 10
Goal 1 Prize: New Jeans!! (Unless I fit into my skinny jeans...then a new shirt or skirt!!)
Current Points Used Today: 25...only 11 left! And a whole meal to go! Yikes!!
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 3
Current Activity Weekly Total: 23
Current Mood: Frustrated
I really fucked up baked potatoes tonight. It was bad! They came out all hard and raw. Of course I tried to eat it anyway and it was no bueno. Figures! I threw half of it away, chalked up the points the best I could and ate a wrap. Which of course cost me like crazy! Bollocks!!
Then I just felt generally sick, so I might not eat again for the rest of the day. Big sloppy end to a rather weird day.
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 10
Goal 1 Prize: New Jeans!! (Unless I fit into my skinny jeans...then a new shirt or skirt!!)
Current Points Used Today: 25...only 11 left! And a whole meal to go! Yikes!!
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 3
Current Activity Weekly Total: 23
Current Mood: Frustrated
I really fucked up baked potatoes tonight. It was bad! They came out all hard and raw. Of course I tried to eat it anyway and it was no bueno. Figures! I threw half of it away, chalked up the points the best I could and ate a wrap. Which of course cost me like crazy! Bollocks!!
Then I just felt generally sick, so I might not eat again for the rest of the day. Big sloppy end to a rather weird day.
Encouragement
Current Weight: 286! Yeah!!
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 10...that should be easy right?
Goal 1 Prize: New Jeans!! (Unless I fit into my skinny jeans...then a new shirt or skirt!!)
Current Points Used Today: 8
Current Week Points Left: 35 (Holla! Saving for Friday)
Current Activity Points Today: 3
Current Activity Weekly Total: 23
Current Mood: Feelin' good!
So I woke up today and was less then enthusiastic about exercising. But I wanted to check my weight on Wii Fit, so I hopped on anyway. I discovered I am down a pound and a half! Holla! Sure enough, that was enough motivation for me to do 15 minutes of yoga, and 20 minutes of ab stuff. Funny how that works.
Eating is still going well, but I am never using enough points. Last night I still had 7 points left over and I wasn't hungry, so I just left them. But of course they advise you to eat those points. I'm really scared that they will take away my points drastically next week if I don't use them, and what if I am less motivated to do this next week. I am trying today to spread them out a bit more so it's easier to reach my goal.
I'm hoping the weight change will help me stay motivated. And if that doesn't work, I'll look to J. One thing I can say is that the new lease on life is helping me stay motivated to be more on top of more things in my life. It's a nice change. It sort of reminds me of college.
When I was in college I had quite a day. I got up in the morning, did my class and radio stuff. Came home and had lunch and did showering and all that stuff. Then I would go do some work up at the theatre, maybe have a few more classes. Have some dinner, go to rehearsal all night, go out and party with friends, come home, crash and start all over again. So much happened in my day. Now I get up, have to drag myself to work on the few days I do. Mostly I sit around, have to convince myself to do anything: cook, clean, do work, etc. Take a shower, go to bed. It feels like I've lost my will to live. Emotionally I am still there, but physically, I have given up. And I HATE that feeling!! It needs to go away. Lately though, it is, and I am starting to make changes. I feel like I should be doing something, no scratch that, I WANT to be doing something most of the time I am just sitting and watching TV or whatever. So now I just have to find something.
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 10...that should be easy right?
Goal 1 Prize: New Jeans!! (Unless I fit into my skinny jeans...then a new shirt or skirt!!)
Current Points Used Today: 8
Current Week Points Left: 35 (Holla! Saving for Friday)
Current Activity Points Today: 3
Current Activity Weekly Total: 23
Current Mood: Feelin' good!
So I woke up today and was less then enthusiastic about exercising. But I wanted to check my weight on Wii Fit, so I hopped on anyway. I discovered I am down a pound and a half! Holla! Sure enough, that was enough motivation for me to do 15 minutes of yoga, and 20 minutes of ab stuff. Funny how that works.
Eating is still going well, but I am never using enough points. Last night I still had 7 points left over and I wasn't hungry, so I just left them. But of course they advise you to eat those points. I'm really scared that they will take away my points drastically next week if I don't use them, and what if I am less motivated to do this next week. I am trying today to spread them out a bit more so it's easier to reach my goal.
I'm hoping the weight change will help me stay motivated. And if that doesn't work, I'll look to J. One thing I can say is that the new lease on life is helping me stay motivated to be more on top of more things in my life. It's a nice change. It sort of reminds me of college.
When I was in college I had quite a day. I got up in the morning, did my class and radio stuff. Came home and had lunch and did showering and all that stuff. Then I would go do some work up at the theatre, maybe have a few more classes. Have some dinner, go to rehearsal all night, go out and party with friends, come home, crash and start all over again. So much happened in my day. Now I get up, have to drag myself to work on the few days I do. Mostly I sit around, have to convince myself to do anything: cook, clean, do work, etc. Take a shower, go to bed. It feels like I've lost my will to live. Emotionally I am still there, but physically, I have given up. And I HATE that feeling!! It needs to go away. Lately though, it is, and I am starting to make changes. I feel like I should be doing something, no scratch that, I WANT to be doing something most of the time I am just sitting and watching TV or whatever. So now I just have to find something.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Can This Be Right
Current Weight: 287, since it's been but a mere few hours
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 11
Goal 1 Prize: New Jeans!!
Current Points Used Today: 15.5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 9
Current Activity Weekly Total: 20
Current Mood: Tired and hurting
So I get 36 points a day. Which seems to me to be alot. I really don't feel like I'm on a diet at all. I still have 20.5 points left for today, and I've already eaten my big meal of the day. I don't know what I am going to spend them on. Maybe a wrap and chips? Maybe real chips! That would be so lovely. One of my yummy 3 point desserts should factor in somewhere too! Hmm...
Still, doesn't feel very diet-y to me.
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 11
Goal 1 Prize: New Jeans!!
Current Points Used Today: 15.5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 9
Current Activity Weekly Total: 20
Current Mood: Tired and hurting
So I get 36 points a day. Which seems to me to be alot. I really don't feel like I'm on a diet at all. I still have 20.5 points left for today, and I've already eaten my big meal of the day. I don't know what I am going to spend them on. Maybe a wrap and chips? Maybe real chips! That would be so lovely. One of my yummy 3 point desserts should factor in somewhere too! Hmm...
Still, doesn't feel very diet-y to me.
Pain, pain, pain.
Current Weight: 287!!! Holla!!
Change in Weight: -5
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 11
Goal 1 Prize: New Jeans!!
Current Points Used Today: Only 3!
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 9...shopping counts for a ton!!
Current Activity Weekly Total: 20
Current Mood: Hurting!!
Ok so I woke up this morning with the most incredible pain in my thighs (no laughing please!). And all I could think was that I really didn't think that I have pushed myself yesterday. And I didn't. Later on, I went to squat and lo and behold I figured it out. I was squatting constantly yesterday to talk to my kids in class! Bingo! Yahtzee!! I am the winner. Or loser. You know, it depends on how you look at it.
Anyway we went shopping today and I went low fat, no fat, diet, good point value crazy! I think I did a good job though. And I discovered today that Dad's chili is a mere 6 points a bowl!! Double holla! Of course that is without cheese and crackers which I will add like a mad woman. But I could have two bowls without and still be in a good range!! Yay!!
So all in all, day 2 of the diet is going well. Still working out the kinks in the program and a few in myself. And I know it is going to get harder because for every bloody good for you diet food I bought, the fam bought something extra super bad for you. Figures!
Change in Weight: -5
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 11
Goal 1 Prize: New Jeans!!
Current Points Used Today: Only 3!
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 9...shopping counts for a ton!!
Current Activity Weekly Total: 20
Current Mood: Hurting!!
Ok so I woke up this morning with the most incredible pain in my thighs (no laughing please!). And all I could think was that I really didn't think that I have pushed myself yesterday. And I didn't. Later on, I went to squat and lo and behold I figured it out. I was squatting constantly yesterday to talk to my kids in class! Bingo! Yahtzee!! I am the winner. Or loser. You know, it depends on how you look at it.
Anyway we went shopping today and I went low fat, no fat, diet, good point value crazy! I think I did a good job though. And I discovered today that Dad's chili is a mere 6 points a bowl!! Double holla! Of course that is without cheese and crackers which I will add like a mad woman. But I could have two bowls without and still be in a good range!! Yay!!
So all in all, day 2 of the diet is going well. Still working out the kinks in the program and a few in myself. And I know it is going to get harder because for every bloody good for you diet food I bought, the fam bought something extra super bad for you. Figures!
Monday, January 26, 2009
Goals
Current Weight: Still 293, same day and all...
Change in Weight: None
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 15.6
Goal 1 Prize: ??
Current Points Used Today: 25
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 11 (Holla! Playing with kids counts like crazy!!)
Current Activity Weekly Total: 11
Current Mood: Rockin! Getting hungry though.
So it occured to me as I was reading some of the message boards, I need to have some sort of...prize structure for my goals. So goal 1 is 5% of my current weight which is 277.4. At the successful acheivment of my first goal, I will...ok I don't know yet...but I'm working on it...darn!
Change in Weight: None
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 15.6
Goal 1 Prize: ??
Current Points Used Today: 25
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 11 (Holla! Playing with kids counts like crazy!!)
Current Activity Weekly Total: 11
Current Mood: Rockin! Getting hungry though.
So it occured to me as I was reading some of the message boards, I need to have some sort of...prize structure for my goals. So goal 1 is 5% of my current weight which is 277.4. At the successful acheivment of my first goal, I will...ok I don't know yet...but I'm working on it...darn!
The First Step
Current Weight: A staggering 293 according to Wii Fit! (1lb more then what I registered on Weight Watchers last night!)
Current Points: 25
Current Week Points: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 5
Current Activity Weekly Total:
Current Mood: Really good, very positive!
So here is the deal, I weight nearly 300 lbs. No bueno! I am 25 now, and I need to take control. So I start here. After chatting with J at work I decided to start weight watchers. Of course it's not just her, I've been logging on to the site a lot in the past few weeks trying to decide if I wanted to do it or not. Of course, I never get my act together until after Christmas, so now that we are there, it's time to get serious.
I like the plan, I like the points system. And I like that I can sort of barter for more points, and even work a few in via exercise. It's a good deal. And I like that I can visually track it all, and even save my faves. Oh God...I sound like an add for the program! I assure I am not. In fact since this is day one, I guarentee there will be bad days when I hate the program.
So I work on an odd schedule, where I get up at noon, so I've had to go about and adjust the typical day schedule to my schedule, but I think I have worked it out. Eating today has been pretty easy, although getting enough milk has been tricky. The good new is my lattes are on the deal and only 2 points!! Of course I just have to be sure to order the skinny lattes!
Keep the fam on track might be tricky, but they seem open to it for the time being. We'll see how shopping does tomorrow of course. The cool thing is that I can access the site from my celly! I can double check everything before I buy it!
As far as exercise goes, I was able to earn 5 today! I did some yoga, and some dancing. I like to put on upbeat music and dance while I get ready for work. It's a nice workout! And productive. And I had my class today, where I was running around being silly with the kids, so that has to count for something right? Plus doesn't all cleaning count? And I might be doing laundry later, althought that can't count for too much. Hmm...I wonder...
Current Points: 25
Current Week Points: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 5
Current Activity Weekly Total:
Current Mood: Really good, very positive!
So here is the deal, I weight nearly 300 lbs. No bueno! I am 25 now, and I need to take control. So I start here. After chatting with J at work I decided to start weight watchers. Of course it's not just her, I've been logging on to the site a lot in the past few weeks trying to decide if I wanted to do it or not. Of course, I never get my act together until after Christmas, so now that we are there, it's time to get serious.
I like the plan, I like the points system. And I like that I can sort of barter for more points, and even work a few in via exercise. It's a good deal. And I like that I can visually track it all, and even save my faves. Oh God...I sound like an add for the program! I assure I am not. In fact since this is day one, I guarentee there will be bad days when I hate the program.
So I work on an odd schedule, where I get up at noon, so I've had to go about and adjust the typical day schedule to my schedule, but I think I have worked it out. Eating today has been pretty easy, although getting enough milk has been tricky. The good new is my lattes are on the deal and only 2 points!! Of course I just have to be sure to order the skinny lattes!
Keep the fam on track might be tricky, but they seem open to it for the time being. We'll see how shopping does tomorrow of course. The cool thing is that I can access the site from my celly! I can double check everything before I buy it!
As far as exercise goes, I was able to earn 5 today! I did some yoga, and some dancing. I like to put on upbeat music and dance while I get ready for work. It's a nice workout! And productive. And I had my class today, where I was running around being silly with the kids, so that has to count for something right? Plus doesn't all cleaning count? And I might be doing laundry later, althought that can't count for too much. Hmm...I wonder...
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