Long Time, No Post and Losing Motivation

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 272
Current Weight: 272
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 4
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 9
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 41!
Current Week Points Left: 9!
Current Activity Points Today: 2
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 133
Current Mood: Eh..

I know it has been a long time since I have written, but I am just losing my patience, I'm losing my motivation, I'm losing my sanity.

I'm still going, but I have had a BAD week. I'm mean, look, I am down to 9 weekly points and usually I don't break 30!! I just mad at life and my parents and myself and EVERYTHING!!! It's just a bad week right?! That is what I keep telling myself. Maybe (hopefully) next week will be much better.

Maybe I should hang around the boards. I don't know. It's rough. Maybe I should talk to J, she is one of my partners in this! I just don't feel like weighing her down with my whiny ways. And that is how I feel, whiny. I can do this, and I know I can, I just don't feel like doing it right now, and therefore, I am whiny.

And I've lost 21lbs! That is huge!! HUGE!! And I am so happy about that, I am, really! But it's just starting to feel so very....annoying. I'll figure it out. Like I said, it's a bad week.

Hmmm....

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 273
Current Weight: 272
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 4
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 9
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit or jeans
Current Points Used Today: 7
Current Week Points Left: 26
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 8
Total Activity Points: 127
Current Mood:eh

I am getting so sick of this! I think it's because I am just in a bad way right now. I do like seeing my weight go down still.

Oh and I do better when I eat all my points and even when I eat over a bit. Hmmmm.

Going Down Down in an Earlier Round!

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 273
Change in Weight: -3
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 5
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 10
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 7
Current Week Points Left: 27
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 119
Current Mood:Alright, I guess....

So I am at the 20 lbs mark! Yay!! But my weigh in yesterday leaves me at 275, so I am not really excited. It's been a rough week.

A Busy Girl

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 274
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 13
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 4
Current Week Points Left: 27
Current Activity Points Today: 4
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 119
Current Mood:Oy!

It's been a long few days including a play, subbing, a car accident (all is well...even the car!), and me being a little bit depression. Me period is coming...I'll be fine.

Hells to the Yeah!!

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 274
Change in Weight: -3
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 6
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 11
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 4
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 10
Total Activity Points: 113
Current Mood: Awesome!!

OMG!!! Down 3 lbs!! How freaking awesome is that?!?! I am so happy! Holla!! One more pound and I hit 20!!

A New Way of Checking Up on Things

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9 (Back in the single digits...lets hope it sticks)
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 14
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 19
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 7
Total Activity Points: 110
Current Mood: Doin' Fine

So I am slowly climbing back down again. Yay!! I need to be way more careful, and I know it. Today I think I will be in good.

My friend A is in design school and she is my plus sized girl! So she is doing a design project and has asked me to be a model for her. So I am going to be able to watch my measurements go down via her which is kind of awesome. The show is on April 1st, so we have sometime. We'll see! And I have already seen some changes. My tummy looks smaller, my thighs look smaller and my face looks smaller! It's so freaking awesome!!

I bought new shirts today, and some fit, some don't. But they will!

Lastly I want to talk about lying. I still want to lie to my point counter and luckily I don't because I always realize that it doesn't care. The only person I lie to is myself. And what is the point in that.

Of course I also hate when I go over, I totally beat myself up over it. Grr!! It drives me crazy!

Bleh...maintain...plateau...egh....

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 15
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 22
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Eh...

Grrr! I hate maintaining...I have nothing to say. I just wanted to check in...eh....

Just as I Suspected

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 15
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 22
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Eh...

I knew I ate a lot yesterday, and I ate late, and that equals very bad for me. I gained to bloody pounds, boo!

I've made the change today, and I am thinking clearer, and doing better. And I actually plan to do some exercise later on today. I still have 12 points left today, and I think I may just eat 3, well possibly. I have too many choices right now. Samoas are 3. Ferrero Roche's are 3. Thin Mints are 4. And the new Dulce de Leche cookies are 5. I'll eat one of them, I just don't know which one.

I am becoming really quite proud of my will power though, I am learning to remember that I don't need to eat everything. I can have just a little and move on. And I don't need to always be eating. My cravings are getting bigger though! Today I have wanted cinnimon rolls, cupcakes and the dreaded thin mints I took out of it's original casing and put into a little baggy just for me. And I am all being whiny and sad over the fact that I don't have a whole box of Thin Mints for myself. I don't need a whole box of Thin Mints!! I really don't even like them all that much.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

I Practice the Religion of Greg Beherendt

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 276
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Lbs to Goal 3 Weight: 263
Goal 3 Prize: New Summer Outfit
Current Points Used Today: 39.5
Current Week Points Left: 29.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: AWESOME!!!

I LOVE Greg Beherendt. After seeing him I love myself more, my life more, my missions, my choices, everything. I now offically practice the religion of Greg Beherendt.

GOAL 1 ACHIEVED!!!!

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 276
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 0!!!!!!
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (which I am wearing tonight to Greg Behrendt!!!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 8
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 0
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: AWESOME!!!

I did it!!! I did it!!! HOLLA!!!!

I reached my first official goal!!! I am so ridiculously excited!!! It is time to celebrate!!! I am wearing my pink pants and it is going to be awesome!

My points went down again to 34. Which is good, since I rarely eat my whole 35 anyway. My BMI is 45.99....out of the 46s!! This is a great day!!!

My new weight loss goal for myself is 10% weight loss, which is 263, 30 lbs total...as for the gift...I haven't decided. Probably new clothes. Check back later.

No Goes

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 277
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 1
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 35
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Feelin' Good

Date--eh
Life--good
Diet--awesome
Weigh In Tomorrow-not too nervous....

Breaking Thru!

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 277
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 1
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 9 (down to single digits!)
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Feelin' Good

I'm down another pound! Yay!! Now if I could only get down one more by tomorrow, I would be a happy, happy girl. However, it's not exactly likely to happen. So I really just need to keep an eye on reality. I actually felt really bloated today, and I thought it was going to go up. Luckily it didn't.

So tonight is my date. I am kind of excited for it. But I am really starting to think about the things I want in my life, and the big things I want to focus on right now are this weight loss, and moving to California. I really wasn't looking for anything, and I really still am not. I don't want anything to hold me back or distract me from either of these two goals.

We'll see what happens.

Long, Long, Long Day (Including the General Lee)

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 21
Current Activity Weekly Total: 37
Total Activity Points: 103
Current Mood: Great!

Oh dear it has been a long day. I had a bunch of stuff to do this morning, a bunch of stuff to do before work, and then I had to work. And of course it was opening night which meant extra hours and tons to do. I barely sat down from 5:30 straight though to 11:00!

But we had the General Lee in sight and that was fucking awesome. That is a beautiful fucking car! Now C and J and I are watching the Dukes of Hazzard. The movie of course, not the show.

Back at 15

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (Which I doubt I'll wear this weekend. Sad day!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 82
Current Mood: Great!

So I'm back at 278 again, but this time I feel way better about it. So far it's the lowest I have been on this diet, and I really hope I don't plateau here. I'm working up my exercise, and working back my food. And I did go a little crazy with food last week. So hopefully, if I keep track of myself with the food and exercise, that won't be the case, and I will keep on losing!

New Rochelle. New Attitude. New Guy?

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 279
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 27
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 3
Current Activity Weekly Total: 16
Total Activity Points: 82
Current Mood: SO GOOD!!

I think I have a date for Saturday!! YAY!!!! I like the new Rochelle!!

Slowly Working Back

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 279
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Better

So I am slowly climbing back down from the weird rebound. It was so frustrating! I felt like it dictated my whole day. Of course then the clouds rolled in, and my bad mood escalated. And I had hurt from the dar prior. Yesterday was just overall bad.

Now that things are going the other way. I am happy to be back down, and to top it off, a guy flirted with me today...so yay! I am slowly working my way back the other way!!

WTF?!?!

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: +2
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 6
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Depressed

I have nothing to say. Other then: WTF?!?!?!

Workin' Out Like Mad

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 20
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 11
Current Activity Weekly Total: 13
Total Activity Points: 79
Current Mood: Worked Out!

Oh deary me! I just had a crazy huge workout. On the one side, I feel AWESOME. But on the other side, I am EXHAUSTED!

I really like my new work out schedule. At first I tried to workout in the morning, but that was just no bueno. I had no energy and no motivation. I had to force myself to do it, and when I didn't, it ruined my whole day. Now that I wait until the afternoon, I WANT to workout, and I have the energy, the motivation, and in someways, the guilt of all the food I had eaten that day. I think I am also going to try and start walking, probably at some of the parks around here.

Oy!

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 13.5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 6
Current Activity Weekly Total: 8
Total Activity Points: 74
Current Mood: Eh....it's been an interesting day!

Bouncing, bouncing, bouncing. I'm up a little, but still at 278, so I am thankful for that, it's a frustrating day. Dad went and bought two fucking bags of Doritos which are tempting me. Luckily they are only 3 points for a few so that makes it a bit easier. I just have to remember to stay mentally prepared to deal with all this, my body isn't craving Doritos, my mind is. And I don't need it.

It's been a low point day. Low breakfast, low lunch, low dinner. I'll exercise when M&D go to bed, hopefully that can balance things out.

Jumping Forward

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 278
Current Weight: 278
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Tired

All I can think about today, is jumping forward. One day. One week. One month. One year. Just to see how much I lose. I'm always waiting, anticipating (I know that is a line from something...but I just don't know what). It's actually becoming incredibly annoying. I need to slow down work on other parts of my life.

The Second Weigh In

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 279
Current Weight: 278 (Now I'm breezin' through the 270s!)
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 2
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (I want to wear them by next week!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 10
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 1
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Ecstatic!!!!!

Ooh, I was nervous this morning. I hemmed and hawed quite a bit before I went to the scale this morning. I knew it was the offical weigh in, and whatever I put on the scale today, I had to put into the website, no pussyfooting around. So I didn't eat, I talked to the kids before they left for hockey, I did some laundry. Then, finally I had no other choice.

I almost did a little dance when I saw the BMI score, and when I switched it to weight, I did do a little dance. Offically I am down a pound and a half!! Holla!! I was jumping up and down. Well as much as you can jump up and down on the Wii Fit.

You know how you always read those stories on weight loss websites? So and so lost 50, 100, 150 pounds. It was easy, the change came so simply....ugh...they always make it sound so damn easy! And so you think, "yeah! I could totally do this to!" With this diet, I feel like one of those people. Now that I have actively made the change in my head, it's so simple.

I think it's like drug addicts. They always say you can keep helping them and helping them, but nothing is going to come of it, until they do it for themselves. And maybe that is just it. I was addicted to food, like a drug. But now I am ready to help myself. Ready to change. Ready to be a new person, to lead a new life, to have new goals.

The scary part of the whole thing, is that those stories, the ones of great success, always have a little warning tagged on to the end. "Results not typical." I know it's just to save them from some asinine lawsuit, but it is true isn't it? Out of the, what has to be thousands of people who try this diet, how many fail? Because they aren't ready, or they don't care, or countless other reasons?

I am not going to be one of those people. I am going to be one of the success stories. The ones who have the crazy huge weight loss and claim it was easy. Easy because there was a change in their thinking, or life, or whatever.

15 pounds down, 128 to go. Maybe more.

279!!!

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 279 (Woo!! Rockin' the 270s!!)
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 3
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (I want to wear them by next week!)
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 11
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 31
Current Week Points Left: 27.5
Current Activity Points Today: 12
Current Activity Weekly Total: 33
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Good! And so very, very full from Lunch/Dinner

Wooo!!! I have broken into the 270s!! Just barely, but I've done it and that is all that matters. I really hate that my weight loss has slown down. It drives me crazy! I think that is why you are only supposed to weigh yourself once a week. But with the damn Wii Fit I am addicted to doing it every bloody day. And it does go down, it's just by small points like .2 lbs. And I know I am losing at a healthy rate, but COME ON!!! Grrr! It's driving me nuts-oh!

Well I had a good morning, but a big old dinner, so I am going to watch this movie and putz around on the internet for awhile and when I am done with that in a couple hours I am going to exercise like a mad woman and hope for the best. Weigh in is tomorrow!! Eeek!!!!

A New Person and Slowing Down

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 42.5
Current Week Points Left: 9
Current Activity Points Today: 12
Current Activity Weekly Total: 33
Total Activity Points: 66
Current Mood: Good!

So yesterday after the mega huge dinner, I opted to eat nothing unless absolutly desperate. I got close once, but I held off. So this morning I was so very scared my weight was going to go up, but low and behold, it went down. However, I am still hovering in 280.

I was good today, lunch was a bit big, but I made sure to have a small dinner. And at the movie, I just had water, no snack. I actually can't remember the last time I went to the movie theatre and had no snack. It's very strange. But you know what, I didn't miss it. The movie was not made better or worse by the addition or subtraction of snacks. Although the pop corn did smell quite yummy at one point. But again, I got past that.

You know it used to be that if I didn't have food, I felt like I was missing out on something. I am slowly becoming this new person that doesn't need to define herself by food. I love this new person I am becoming. I am more confident and happy as this person. More then I ever was as the old person.

I do hate that I am down to a slow losing rate, so I exercised like hell tonight. I didn't push it, or at least I didn't feel like I pushed it. And I feel great!! And I think I am going to have to stick to exercising at this time, it works better for me. I feel better both emotionally and physically. The mornings are too much of a drain on me.

Hopefully this will pay off tomorrow!!

Big Day...eeek!

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 280
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: 0
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants (which I already bought...but I won't wear until those last 4 points are gone.
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 42.5
Current Week Points Left: 27.5
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: Good...nervous about the food today

So no change in weight today and I have a big old meal. I knew I was going to have it though, C and I have been planning to go out to Buffalo Wild Wings for a month or so now. I ate light this morning though, which helped save me. And it was so good! I think as long as I only do it once in awhile, I am fine. So back on the diet for sure tomorrow, and I might do a bit of an extra work out later after The Office.

Back on Track

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 282
Current Weight: 280
Change in Weight: -2
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 4
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 12
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 3
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: Excited, despite being sick

Holla!! I am back on track and down to 180!! How freaking awesome is that!! And I was so good last night, I wanted dessert, but didn't have the points for it and I thought, "well I do have all the weekly points there, I could just munch it anyway and take those points." But in the end I remembered how low I felt when the little dot on the Wii Fit moved up and I opted not to eat it. Yay!! I am so ridiculously proud of myself!! More later...

A Tiny Rebound

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 281
Current Weight: 282
Change in Weight:+1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 6
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 14
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 32.5
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 8
Current Activity Weekly Total: 14
Total Activity Points: 47
Current Mood: A little sad

I woke up this morning and just felt a little bleh. And I knew stepping on the scale, it would be bad. And I know my point tracking hasn't been 100%. So in truth, I wasn't exactly surprised when my weight went up today. Luckily it was just a pound. And of course my exercise has been, well, non-existant. So tomorrow...and possibly tonight, I am getting back on track. I hate watching that thing go up! Damn! Damn!! Damn!!!

Starting a New Week

Original Weight: 293
Last Weight: 282
Current Weight: 281
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 5
Goal 1 Prize: New Dress Pants
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 13
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 12
Current Week Points Left: 35
Current Activity Points Today: 6
Current Activity Weekly Total: 6
Total Activity Points: 39
Current Mood: Hungry!

For some reason yesterday and today have been so very hard. I really want to eat the heck out of a bag of tortilla chips and some salsa. I'm so hungry!! I've been good though, and I have stuck with it. I just keep thinking about how much weight I have lost, and it just drives me to stay on with it. But when my stomach empties I get sick, and that makes it really hard. All day today I have had to keep snacking to keep myself going. So half of it is mental, and half is physical. It's very bizarre. Maybe a round of careful chips and salsa will make it all better.

The First Official Weigh In

Current Weight: 282
Change in Weight: -1
Lbs to Goal 1 Weight: 6
Goal 1 Prize: I changed again...new dress pants because they are falling off me!
Lbs to Goal 2 Weight: 14
Goal 2 Prize: Mom pays for my dreaded speeding ticket without complaint.
Current Points Used Today: 12
Current Week Points Left: 35, new week
Current Activity Points Today: 0
Current Activity Weekly Total: 0, new week
Current Mood: Content

I did my official weight check in today at the website and officially I have lost 10 pounds (11 really because I gained one). The website celebrated me, my parents celebrated me, it's a good day!! They adjusted my daily points down to 35, which isn't as bad as I thought it would be. As you can see, I added a second goal. Mom said she would pay my ticket if I lost 25 pounds. So yay! Doubly good!!

Yesterday was hard with the pizza, but I came home and made an alternative pizza that was way better for me, and I stayed under my points by 2.5! I am really proud of myself!! This is one of the best things I have ever done, I love seeing the results, watching my little chart on the Wii Fit slope down! It's really fulfilling. And despite the bad weekend I have been having, I am still really happy because I have been working on this goal.