So I am starting to find serenity now that my room is clean and organized again. It's wonderful. And I have found some music to settle my head, which is always a plus. It's almost amazing, the peace I have found. On a related note, cute guy lives across the street.
On the weight issue, I still feel really stuck. Somewhere around 245ish. Though really that comes from the fact that I CANNOT stay on my diet. At all. It's horrible. But I think I have found a way to re-energize this. Stay tuned.